Partners and marriage

By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met
a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems
constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what
it cuts o! ut of our lives than for what it makes possible within our
lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a
mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social
acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the
logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became
embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older
couples and saw, at best, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a
lifetime of loveless nights and bickering and could not imagine subjecting
myself or someone else to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to
glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just
dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles. It was an
astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they
have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the
other's habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem
unable to even stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to
the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad
relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to
succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good
relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in
the early stages.

Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see
yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little! things by
which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to
see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people
choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period
of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.

This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others
deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other
apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the
presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them
from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time
friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to
know! each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each
other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before
they get swept into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of
your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other
keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how
much you will enjoy each other's company over the long term.

If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of
others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is
the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always
surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can
always keep the worl! d around you new.

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most
intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn
sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to
turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your
relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you
respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their
relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They
find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the
emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship
ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your par!
tner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will
inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals
with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love
will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you
each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not
respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on
the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart
resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of
the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to
the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance
doesn't become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated
and misunderstood. There are many other keys, but you must find them by
yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not
betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny.
If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable
parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find
yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where
you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the
heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the
cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples
bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner
with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take
place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when ! I speak of a
miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in
marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most
common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes
the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never
question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are
not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to
believe.

Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like
a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that
will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come.

If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you
have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be! flawed. We
are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a
marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of
the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred
to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness
and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first
heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was
actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I
could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it
cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter.

But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative
transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But
instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches
of love. Two histories intermingle. Two sepa! rate beings, two separate
presence, two separate consciousnesses come together and share a view of
life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become
one. There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a
constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not
tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every
choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers.
Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not
taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the
richness that it alone contains.

But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the
knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those
who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared
company! , but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment
that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.

So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the
wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power
of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found
someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that
you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the
partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the
cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready
to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy
grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes,
a thousand flowers will bloom...endlessly.

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A beautiful piece. Pls pass it on specially to the young people who are
starting to get into relationships or are in a relationship. It would
save them a lot of heartaches and bitterness down the road.


From: JeanAustria@astec-power.com