a love story

A few years back...I was so excited to meet that
special someone who will make my life complete. I
thought I had it all na kasi except for that someone
who will make me forget about my fears and heartaches.
Many times...I thought nakilala ko na siya...but many
times I realized that hindi pala siya. I don't know
kung hindi talaga siya para sa akin or ako lang yung
may problema...dahil i just can't get contented with
what I have. Masaya lang kasi sa una...then after
that, sunod sunod na ang away, kung wala namang away,
wala namang thrill. And I end up getting tired of
hoping that tomorrow will make up for today...Finally,
I decided that maybe its better to try my luck
elsewhere, maybe, someone else's love will make me
feel complete.Every woman wants a man who will make
her feel special...and treat her like she's everything
in his life... He's always busy...he doesn't have time
for me. He promised to take me out for dinner and
movie and then biglang tatawag "B, sorry I can't take
you out today, my boss asked me to work tonight, may
hinahabol kasing deadline. Nakakahiya naman pag hindi
ko pagbibigyan. Hayaan mo I'll make it up to you next
time." And it happens all the time. I often end up
spending the day crying in my room. "Bakit gan'un, he
doesn't care about me...I was looking forward to see
him today. Hindi ba niya ako namimiss?" Kaya heto
ako...I've made up my mind na...I'll give him what he
wants...he probably won't miss me anyway. I'm always
last sa lahat ng priorities niya. Im not important to
him at all. If he can't treat me right, somebody else
will! Mahimbing ang tulog niya...when he came home. D
man lng niya ako napansin. He gave me a kiss sa cheek
and ginulo ang buhok ko...after that dumeretso nasa
kuarto at natulog. I won't wake him up
anymore...susulat na lng ako...at parang isang
panaginip...pagising niya wala na ako.

Dear Jake,

While you're reading this letter, wala na ako...you
probably won't see me again. I won't tell you the
details anymore coz alam mo na yun. but i guess you
deserve to know why...Lately, I realized that this is
not the kind of life that I want for myself..you know
that I've been lonely most of my life and I want to
share my life with someone who won't take me for
granted, who will make me happy every second of my
life. Forgive me but I

guess, hanggang dito na lng tayo. I just want you to
know that I love you and I want you to be happy too.

Maan

With tears in my eyes, I left the letter beside him
para makita niya paggising niya. And then I looked at
him. Ang guapo guapo niya...napangiti ako...naaalala
ko nung una ko siyang makilala. I met this guy sa
school nung college. Ang daming nagkakagusto sa kanya
but I don't know what he saw in me at ako ang
niligawan niya kahit inaaway ko siya. I was scared of
him before, para kasing playboy ang mukha...I was
broken hearted at that time and getting hurt again was
the last thing I wanted. But then he was persistent
and he was really nice to me. At first, our
relationship was extraordinary. wala akong masabi.
Nobody has ever treated me like that...kaya lang as
time went by...we both got busy and despite the fact
that we both lived under one roof, we seldom spent
time with each other. He buys me anything I want but I
dont really need anything...I just need him. But i
guess, he changed a lot since the first time we were
together, siguro he fell out of love and he just can't
tell me...Ba't kasi kailangan pang magbago ang
lahat....kaya heto na naman ako, muling mag iisa.I
didn't realize, I was staring at him for 3 hours.
Gumalaw siya and something fell off his
hand---ballpen?! and then I saw a piece of paper sa
tabi niya.. I was curious kaya binasa ko and it goes
like this...

Dear Maan,

For all the times that I have disappointed you, I'm
really sorry. I know I've been out of your sight often
and that I always make you feel bad. Im really sorry.
I want you to know that even though wala ako sa tabi
mo...I'm always thinking about you. You are the reason
why I work hard. I want to give you everything in life
because you deserve everything and I want you to be
happy. Kaya forgive me kung hindi tayo natuloy last
week. I had to work double time para matuloy tayo
ngayon. I know that you've always wanted to go south
sa beach. I can't afford a house by the beach right
now but I hope that I've made you happy today. I love
you baby. I love you more than you'll ever know. Happy
Valentines Day!

With lots of love,

Jake

What if hindi ko nakita ang letter na to? I could have
committed the greatest mistake of my life, letting go
of someone who loves me the way this man does. I will
never forgive myself for thinking that he was unfair,
that he doesn't care, that he doesn't love me. I
couldn't help myself but cry. All the while, I was the
one being unfair and selfish and I feel so stupid for
failing to see what this man is doing for me.
Valentines na pala next week. I havent got anything
for him yet...ahh alam ko na, from now on, hindi na
ako mangungulit. I can wake up tomorrow and pretend
that nothing happened tonight. I placed his letter
back under his pillow and I tore mine into pieces.
Tapos, niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. I love you, b. I
whispered. He wrapped his arms around me at ginulo ang
buhok ko (gulat ako) I love you more he told me. And
he laughed. He was watching me all the time?! O, tapos
naba ang drama mo? Kanina pa kita hinihintay. And he
turned off the lights. :)

Kaya babae, makontento ka, okay? You're in love with a
human being and not with superman!!!

Love is not a bed of roses and love is not a bed of
nails. It is a combination of sadness and happiness...

From: maryfatima@lycos.com